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10 BAMOS Sept 2017 Diversity Quotas are great – but let’s talk about some unexpected side effects Dr Jaclyn Brown CSIRO Agriculture and Food and AMOS Equality and Diversity Committee Here we go again … just walked into a workshop to find I’m the only woman … and possibly the only person under 50. I’d come in so confident that I had an important part to play in these discussions but now my confidence is fading. Whereas before I was keen to share my ideas, now I don’t feel I have a legitimate right to be here. Was I just an afterthought so everyone could feel happy that they ticked the diversity box? Maybe I should just sit here and keep quiet so I don’t embarrass myself. Determining whether I was invited on merit or as a “token” is not the issue here—that was my reaction to the situation and it is possibly similar for many other women. We know quotas are an important part of establishing gender balance and encouraging diversity. My question is: as we implement these quotas, how are they impacting the confidence of the people they are being applied to? It has been found that women in science, technology, engineering and maths (STEM) often grapple with the Imposter Syndrome as do many other minority groups. So we are dealing with people already struggling to feel like they have a place at the table. We implement quotas and diversity policies but in doing so there is the danger that inadvertently we increase feelings of being an imposter. Sadly we sometimes hear phrases like “she only got that job/ asked to speak/given that award because they needed more women.” This has certainly made me reluctant to even apply for jobs where there is an aspirational target for more women. If I got the position (regardless of merit) my colleagues might feel I didn’t deserve the job and that I only got it because I was a woman. Not a great starting point for earning respect – and so I hesitate to apply. So what happened in the workshop I described above? I took a deep breath. Gave myself a quick pep talk and decided that even if I was a token I was going to take full advantage of the opportunity I was given. And afterwards a senior scientist personally thanked me for my contribution—specifically because it was different to the others. That small action restored my confidence. If quotas are a necessary part of getting more diversity at the table, how can we make sure we don’t undermine confidence and participation at the same time? Part of the answer must lie within the story I tell myself; not letting the doubting thoughts come into my mind and grabbing hold of every opportunity. And what should we do for others? At the very least compliments and confidence boosting support will go a long way.