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dropped it into the Vishwamitri River in Baroda. After that my worries became considerably less but when I acquired Gnan I saw and knew the whole world.
Questioner: But were you not aware of your ego even thought you did not have Gnan?
Dadashri: Yes I had that awareness. I also knew that it was my ego, but I liked and nurtured it. It wasn’ t until it started troubling me so much that I realized that it was a foe and not a friend and that there was no pleasure in it.
Questioner: When did you start feeling the ego was your enemy?
Dadashri: When it would not let me fall asleep, I questioned that ego. That is why that night I wrapped it up and dumped it into the Vishwamitri River. What else could I do?
Questioner: What did you wrap in that bundle?
Dadashri: All the ego. The heck with everything! What was it all for anyway? Everything was in vain. People thought that I had all the happiness in the world, whereas I could not see a trace of it within me. All I had was worries and suffering because of the ego.
Only Gnan Can Get Rid Of The Ego
Questioner: When did you feel like getting rid of that mad ego?
Dadashri: It is not something you can get rid of even if you want to. Can one get rid of the ego at all? It just happened to leave automatically when this Gnan manifested within me at Surat Station. Otherwise it will not leave even if I tried to make it. Besides who would set it free when it is the ego that reigns in the first place? The entire kingdom is of the ego, so who would set it free?