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dropped it into the Vishwamitri River in Baroda . After that my worries became considerably less but when I acquired Gnan I saw and knew the whole world .
Questioner : But were you not aware of your ego even thought you did not have Gnan ?
Dadashri : Yes I had that awareness . I also knew that it was my ego , but I liked and nurtured it . It wasn ’ t until it started troubling me so much that I realized that it was a foe and not a friend and that there was no pleasure in it .
Questioner : When did you start feeling the ego was your enemy ?
Dadashri : When it would not let me fall asleep , I questioned that ego . That is why that night I wrapped it up and dumped it into the Vishwamitri River . What else could I do ?
Questioner : What did you wrap in that bundle ?
Dadashri : All the ego . The heck with everything ! What was it all for anyway ? Everything was in vain . People thought that I had all the happiness in the world , whereas I could not see a trace of it within me . All I had was worries and suffering because of the ego .
Only Gnan Can Get Rid Of The Ego
Questioner : When did you feel like getting rid of that mad ego ?
Dadashri : It is not something you can get rid of even if you want to . Can one get rid of the ego at all ? It just happened to leave automatically when this Gnan manifested within me at Surat Station . Otherwise it will not leave even if I tried to make it . Besides who would set it free when it is the ego that reigns in the first place ? The entire kingdom is of the ego , so who would set it free ?