spiral to the depths of perdition. It was like I was falling deeper and deeper into an underworld of anguish & affliction. There was absolutely nobody there to help me. Nobody realised the dangerous predicament I had fallen into, and instead I was disfavoured and disliked because of my behaviour. I was abandoned by practically everyone, I lost friends, loved ones & family members through this. And, it was the worst time of my life. I challenged awful thoughts, mental behaviour & I turned to drugs. I was alone & sad in a dark reclusive bubble. I wasted so much time battling myself, years infact. I was nasty to people, and years were spent in regret & misery.
So, my point is when I sought help & reality became the only path, I knew I realised what I needed to do. Just live, be myself & spend the rest of my life how I want. For me, that was music & writing songs & performing. There is nothing else that can take that place. So this is what i am currently doing.... getting on with it, keeping my head down and working as a Rock Artist which is my only destiny in this life that I'm lucky enough to have granted to me after all my terrible mistakes,
As a female artist, what challenges have you faced, and how have you overcome them? Or what challenges do you still face, and what would you want changed in the industry?
In the music industry I have met quite a few snakes of the grass. People who have used me, broke me and zapped me of my energy. For example, I was told by a producer that I was "Delusional and pathetic" ... It really didn't stop me though. If anything, it made me want to succeed even more! I've had producers use me for my money... overturning my bank account, not giving a damn about my project, just quick to take my money and then not giving me my finished product until a year on... and then still unfinished & homespun. So I have had my fair share of record producers & have not trusted any of them except this one I'm working with now who is amazing!! He deserves a massive credit Dave Needham of Darkhorse recording studios in Epsom. He's professional, fair, skilled & gives 100% into all my projects. Its nice to finally have someone that delivers and is committed to making my songs great! So I will not be using any other producer now my loyalty is with Dave and also with Dan Baune, another fantastic rock producer who is also extremely nice. I guess this may happen to a lot of artists? And you have to learn the hard way which is what happened to me! There's no changing this in the industry I'm afraid to say, as a snake is dressed up like a wolf in sheep's clothing, you never see it coming!
Your clothing & make-up style is really cool and different, where do you get your influences & inspiration for your style?
Awwww thank you! I have always had the same style. I'm kind of Glam Rock with my look. I have always shopped at Dolls Kill boutique online, H&M, Apricot & charity shops. Sometimes I'm a bit punky, others glam goth. I was inspired by Madonna first off. Then I got inspired by icons like Jodie Marsh. I love what
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