Opening To The Spirit World
Brad Tesh
It was not until two years ago I actually began to listen to the voice of the Spirit world. I had been determined to do everything myself, pushing onward and never stopping, struggling to understand my purpose. In college I constantly tried to meet society's demands and shifted from one major to another that would guarantee me money upon graduating, as that was what I was told I was "suppose" to do. Never did it occur to me to actually follow my heart and embrace my artistic abilities, as the idea of a "starving artist" was constantly floating through my conscious mind. My personal life reflected this same confusion, as I constantly tried to please other people, doing what they wanted and suggested, yet I felt like I had no say, no reason to follow my own guidance. I wanted all the puzzle pieces of my life to fit together to form a concise picture of how and what everything meant, yet they never completely fit. I constantly felt overwhelmed, agitated, and angry like I was pushing a boulder up a hill, that always came rolling back down.
I reached my boiling point of anger and confusion one day. I was tired of pleasing everyone, frustrated immensely with college, money, and my personal relationships. The world made no sense; I felt like I was a puppet in a show and quite frankly was tired of being yanked by my strings. On the verge of a nervous breakdown,