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here was still fear; she’d mostly been
working on her own, had never taken a class
or entered a contest before. “What if by
my own standards I’m doing good; what if
it’s good art or a good mask but it’s crappy
leather work? I had nothing to compare it
to. What if they hate it? I was really nervous
… but it was easier because I wasn’t there.”
Finding out that she won 2nd place was a
landmark moment in her confidence as an
artist. Her work on the TV show Z Nation
for four seasons as a costume and props
builder had a similar effect on her sense of
identity and accomplishment, since in show
business there often isn’t a lot of lead time.
“Can we have it by tomorrow morning?”
“Can we pick it up at 4am?” And she never
said no. The only project she didn’t finish
was because she went into labor three weeks
early. “I was so much more confident in
my work just knowing I could get it done.
I couldn’t dither. I’m not sure what other
experience could have done that for me in
the same way. They were confident in me, so
I was confident.”
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