This was it; I was going to love my self, TODAY, no doubt about it. I took my clothes off and stood in the mirror until I broke down and cried. I started to love my body. It wasn’t enough to fully love myself but enough to make me cry.
I realized I deserved to change the habits that I had grown for comfort that served me in an unhealthy way. It was time; time to break out of my comfort zone. Time to face my old demons and take them head on, face-to-face. I thought I had gotten past the worst of it after starring at “me” in the mirror, that the rest should be easy. Nope, I was wrong.
There was something much bigger than actually accepting my naked body of imperfections. The thought of reprograming me didn’t come to mind or of the torture I would face doing so until I took on the challenge. Yes, Re-programing my thoughts and changing daily habits has been the hardest thing I have done. Yes, I was so out of my comfort zone. But I’m so glad that I stuck with it. I wanted to quit somedays after facing old past hurts but I knew it was the only way to get through the big barrier I had put up against my true self. Today being the age of 36, I’m not perfect but I am a better me- a greater me. I love myself and have learned to admire myself more and more every day. Taking on me was the best thing I ever did. I’m so grateful for all the support I got from friends and family. I also feel it brought my family relationships closer. As I’m loving myself I find myself seeing life differently and as I accept myself I see people accepting me as well. I am beautiful. I love my body and all.
What do you
see?
©JessicaAsh