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for that morning. So I checked further to see what I had lost
during the day and discovered that at the end of the day I gained
nothing and on the contrary I lost out. Later everyone in the
house tried to appease me by giving me a lot of importance but
I lost my morning milk nevertheless. As a child I saw what
happens in becoming upset and non-communicative, and I
concluded that I lost out in doing so; therefore I stopped it all
together. Does a person not lose out?
Questioner: Yes he does.
Dadashri: Now we have become the Self, so this is not
applicable to us anymore. Have you ever become upset and
non-communicative (risavu)? Does anyone become upset and
non-communicative at hom e?
Questioner: No.
Dadashri: That is good.
Questioner: You said you lost out in your morning milk
because of your obstinacy (aadayee). How old were you?
Dadashri: I was about nine or ten then.
Questioner: But Dada, even we did the same thing. We
too missed our share of milk at that age. We too were left
hungry but we still continued the obstinacy, so how did you
stop?
Dadashri: My morning milk and everything went. I
concluded that all the loss was due to my obstinacy. Obstinacy
is filled with losses, so stop it. One should not be obstinate.
Was all that not obstinacy on my part when I insisted
questioning ‘Why do I get only this much milk?’ Why could I
not just let go and drink it? I thought that maybe I will have my
way the next time. Do you know what I used to tell my mother?
‘Why do you give me half a cup of milk when you give my
sister-in-law half a cup also? Give her less.’ I was happy with