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Aptavani-9 23 Whereas men hold on to the ego, ‘I told you to do this but you did that!’ That is obstinacy (aadayee). Questioner: So is the flowing ego the same as the dramatic ego – the ego that plays the role of the worldly life without attachment? Dadashri: It is the dramatic ego. There is no problem with the flowing ego. If men have a flowing ego, there is no problem. It is obstinacy when they hold on to the ego. Obstinacy leaves by ‘knowing’ that it has occurred Questioner: Once a person realizes he has been obstinate, how can he turn it around if he wants to? Dadashri: The fact that he ‘Knows’ that obstinacy has occurred, verily means that he is turning around. ‘He’ (the one who has awakened) turns back the instant he ‘knows’ (inner experience of Knowledge - anubhav) that obstinacy is occurring. He cannot turn back as long as he does not know and ‘knowing’ means he will definitely turn around. Questioner: What other adjustments does one have to take to turn around? Dadashri: Nothing else, ‘he’ will turn around automatically. Whatever process is necessary, ‘he’ will turn around with that process. There are processes (vidhis) of adjustments. If one has taken Gnan, he will come to ‘know’ ‘his’ obstinacy, but not otherwise. And here, he directly begins to see his faults. Questioner: One turns around when he knows his obstinacy (aadayee). How does he know the obstinacy? How does he recognize it? Dadashri: He will recognize it immediately. If he has taken ‘our’ Gnan, then he will immediately recognize that he is starting to become obstinate. He will immediately know whether