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Aptavani-9
People could not see it but ‘we’ could tell there was obstinacy
(aadayee) within. On the contrary, people saw me as being
straight (sarad). There were small obstinacies, subtle obstinacies,
and egotistic ones. They were not of the body; not the kind of
becoming upset and non-communicative (risavu). They were
obstinacies of the ego. I could tell that the inner adjustment has
taken a wrong turn with reference to an interaction with a certain
person even though that person would not be aware of it.
Questioner: Does that count as obstinacy (aadayee)?
Dadashri: Then what else? If the other person is right
and we do not accept it within, is that not madness of the ego?
Questioner: So is obstinacy not a distortion of the ego?
Dadashri: It is definitely the ego. The buddhi (intellect)
has nothing to do with it.
Questioner: But is it not a distorted ego?
Dadashri: Distorted indeed. What kind of a distortion?
People will say behind your back, ‘Just leave him alone, he is
a little ‘crack (mad)’ Don’t even mention his name.’ Hey you!
How can there be a crack in the head if the engine is still
running?
In those situations you should be alert.
Questioner: There are many who pounce on us the
moment we gently suggest, ‘Sir, it is like this…’
Dadashri: Yes, there are some who will react that way
but you should be careful before you say anything, otherwise
anything is likely to happen. A fight will ensue because they do
not understand what you are trying to say. They will
misunderstand you. The other person will not understand your
good intentions and will take it the wrong way and so he will
fight you. If that happens then you should realize that what you
are saying is not reaching that person and you should not say