Aptavani-9
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Dadashri: Each obstinacy is different. Are all vegetables
the same? There are all kinds of vegetables; obstinacies too are
of different kind. Everyone’s kadhee (soup) is different and
varies; everyone’s height is different and so is their color. Is
everything not different?
Obstinacy leaves when one attains this Gnan. If obstinacy
remains in a person, can one not see it within? No one wishes
to hang on to their obstinacy or to keep it safe in a bank vault!
Those obstinacies will end
Questioner: We are unable to adjust even when we
make a decision to adjust. What is the reason behind this? Is it
due to our obstinacy or does our vyavasthit not allow our efforts
to succeed?
Dadashri: No, it is because obstinacies are still there. It
is all obstinacy. For the one whose obstinacy is gone, all
entanglements clear. Your obstinacy is starting to leave and one
day it will end. This is because the faucet of the ‘tank’ (pending
karmic accounts) is wide open and running and nothing more or
new (no new causes are created) is coming into the tank (karmic
tank) and that is why one day the tank will empty. From now
on, nothing new is taking place in your factory of obstinacy and
your old ones continue to dissipate. One obstinacy will surface
and it will come to an end, then another one will come to surface
and it too will clear and a third one will surface. Obstinacies that
come to surface will leave.
Straight and yet there were subtle
obstinacies
Questioner: In the Aptasutra (Dadashri’s major volume
of 4237 Gnan aphorisms) it says, “Before attaining Gnan, ‘we’
had crossed the entire ocean of obstinacy. Meaning, this Gnan
only manifested after every obstinacy was broken.”
Dadashri: Yes, there was a lot of obstinacy (aadayee).