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that.’ The teacher used to get very upset. He could not say anything but he would be aggravated from within.
Questioner: Why did you go only after the bell?
Dadashri: It was a kind of a pomp; kind of a show-off. It was just a false pride( khumari)! I suffered because of that; I did not straighten up. A straight person would go and sit in the class before the bell.
Questioner: Is showing-off not a wrong path?
Dadashri: It is a wrong path indeed. This fellow( A. M. Patel – Dadashri’ s relative self) would come into the classroom after the bell had rung; the teacher would already be in the classroom. It is acceptable for the teacher to be late but as a rule should the students not be in time? This is the obstinacy. On top of that, he( A. M. Patel) would say,‘ Who does the teacher think he is?’ Hey you! Look here! Do you want to learn at school or do you want confrontations? He would reply,‘ No, first is the confrontation.’ That is called looking for a confrontation.
Questioner: So the teacher could not say anything to you?
Dadashri: He could and yet he would not; he dare not because he was afraid of the retaliation of being beaten up outside the school!
Questioner: Dada, were you so mischievous?
Dadashri: Yes, mischievous indeed. The entire baggage was nothing but that of a troublemaker and obstinacy.
Questioner: And amidst all that such a Gnan expressed! That is great.
Dadashri: The Gnan came to be. This is because of the purity within. There was no attachment( mamata). The problem verily was of this ego. The lack of attachment led to this state of the Gnani. There was no trace of attachment or greed-laden