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awareness when one is not asleep (spiritually). A robber
(kashaya) will not enter if You are aware.
Questioner: So we should be able to ‘see’ our own
faults, should we not?
Dadashri: Yes, they are visible.
Questioner: We should also be able to see the ego
(ahamkar), should we not?
Dadashri: That too is visible.
Questioner: So then what is the reason behind one
slipping?
Dadashri: It is the ego that takes away all the ‘food’. To
take garvaras is to taste the sweetness of doer-ship. It is verily
the ego (discharge ego that exists after Gnan) that makes you do
everything and makes you slip. It traps you in the taste of doer-
ship (garvaras), by telling you ‘This is very good, it is very
good; people like it.’
Questioner: If one tastes too much of the ego’s
garvaras, will he fall again?
Dadashri: Of course! It is all nothing but sweetness that
one experiences in doer-ship. When someone says, ‘I did all
this’ it produces garva of doer-ship. As long as a person makes
money, the sweetness of doer-ship (garvaras) will continue to
arise, but when he incurs a loss, what does he say? He will say,
‘It was God’s wish!’ Let go of this foolishness! You claim to be
the doer when you were making money and now you are
blaming God! When garvaras arises, there is sweetness in it.
Wherever you find ‘sweetness’, know that a beating and
suffering is around the corner.
When there is no difference between the bitter and the
sweet (insult and praise), then know that Gnan is present. The
one who does not differentiate the bitter and the sweet is, and
is not affected by either, is the one who has Gnan.