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not strong enough. Until all those functions are completed (free
from kashaya), the speech will not be syadvaad. Syadvaad
speech is egoless speech; it does not hurt any living being.
Instead, it is better that you do not say anything. Otherwise you
will incur a liability (dosh). As all these facets go down, as the
intellect goes down, as the egoism starts to diminish, the speech
will become syadvaad. For the time being, do not get involved
with answering questions. Otherwise you will be serving
something that is ‘half cooked’. It will mislead you, your spiritual
progress will be hampered and it will be difficult to turn things
around once the damage is done.
Therefore, there must not be the ‘taste’ of sweetness in it
by the egoism and the intellect. In addition, in that process, there
should be repulsion (abhaav) towards any involvement of the
ego or the intellect. And this should become an established
internal study (abhyaas), only then is it useful and worthy! Until
then it is better to wait and be patient.
On the path of full enlightenment…
Do you ever talk and discuss things with people? Do not
get into any discussions anywhere, because people will listen but
what will become of you? People will listen with one ear and let
it out the other, but You too will become sucked into its false
sweetness. This happens because the egoism, the tendency for
the intellect and ego to take over, is still present, and they (anger,
pride, deceit and greed) are all just ready and hungry waiting
with anticipation, ‘when will I get something to eat...when will I
get something to eat?’ And so slowly they get the nourishment
they need.
Why do you go around discussing Gnan when the ego
and all the rest within have not yet diminished? No body benefits
even two cents worth and you keep blowing your horn
unnecessarily! Everyone will find the words very pleasing,
people will even say ‘I really like what you said’, but during that