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residual, it is a discharging ego (nikali ahamkar); it is not true
charge ego i.e. ego that charges new karmas. But even then one
goes on protecting and siding with it. Who are you to judge
what is right and what is wrong? This should not be so.
When one becomes adamant (jakka), it creates more
veils of ignorance over the soul. However, after this Gnan, all
that is left is the vyavahar i.e. only discharging worldly
interactions remain. As far as nischaya (the Self) is concerned,
jakka (insistence) is gone, dwesh (abhorrence) is gone, raag
(attachment) is gone; everything is gone. Now after Gnan, the
worldly life (vyavahar) is no longer chetan; it is no longer living
(there is no more karma bondage; it is all a discharge).
Vyavahar now has become achetan (it is inanimate); there is no
life in it. Achetan means that it will reignite if You instigate it
again (meaning if you become Chandulal again). Otherwise the
non-Self (prakruti) will show its traits and dissipate, nothing
more. Do you understand? It will manifest its trait; you will know
what it is like when it expresses. You can know and identify all
its traits. So different prakruti will express in different manner
and intensity, and thus the stock within (bharelo maal) becomes
evident. Then having expressed itself, it will dissipate.
The ego is rendered lifeless on the basis of this Akram
Vignan of ours. So sooner or later it is going to leave completely.
In the Kramic path the ego is alive whereas here in the Akram
path, it is lifeless; everything remains ‘dramatic’ - superficial.
The kashayas of anger, pride, deceit and greed, are all
‘dramatic’ also - they are superficial and lifeless. However the
kashayas that remain within now need to be dealt with, with
equanimity.
Deceit (kapat) and craftiness (chaturai)
If someone is verbally abusing one, in that too one’s
kashayas - inner passions of anger, pride, deceit and greed will
engulf him all over during that moment.