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Aptavani-9 335 Questioner: And if he has done something good, he will tell ten other people, ‘I did this and I did that’. What should be done if that happens? Dadashri: Yes, but it will only arise if he tells others about his deeds. Garvaras is that which arises when he tells others. He gets enjoyment from that. And if the other person is asleep, he will not be satisfied until he wakes him up and tells him! Questioner: But does he not get encouragement when that happens? Dadashri: He gets encouragement but what increases as a result? Is the soul likely to increase? It is the ego that increases. Questioner: As the ego continues to get encouragement does the soul not lose by that much? Dadashri: That does happen. Questioner: Now when it is in the form of a discharge and one continues to ‘see’ it as a discharge, without interruption; what is the process of that ‘seeing’? Dadashri: When you watch a movie, what is being used in the process? Your sthool (external) eyes and your sookshma (subtle) eyes, both are used. When it is needed, these external eyes are used for external things and the inner eye is used for subtle understanding of internal things. So keep ‘seeing’ what ‘it’ (the pudgal-the relative self) is doing, that is all! Know what it is doing. Keep seeing all the garvaras the relative-self tastes, and later, admonish him a little by saying, ‘Chandulal, why do you still taste this? Why don’t you smarten up a little bit?’ That is all. Questioner: Sometimes I tell him, ‘Be quiet and sit down you bundle of nonsense!’ Dadashri: Yes, he will straighten out if you call him a