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satisfied. We can see that the man has changed; there has been
an ‘effect’ on him of some kind.
So we say to him, ‘Come in, come and have some tea.’
We offer him tea, not for his air of superiority but to inquire into
his changed disposition. He believes we are offering him tea
because of his superior stand. We give him tea and ask him,
‘Where did you go?’ He will reply smugly, ‘I needed to collect
the five thousand rupees from him, now I have them.’ He gets
five thousand rupees in his pocket and he becomes self-satisfied
(unmattata). He now has the disease of swelling with pride -
unmattata. So the ‘eggplant’ becomes ‘tight’, otherwise the
‘eggplant’ becomes limp.
Now if a person has unmattata with just five thousand
rupees, then as far as the Gnani Purush is concerned, the Lord
of three worlds is pleased with Him. So tell me, how much
‘unmattata’ will He be in? And yet there is none. Is that not a
wonder? But no, that is precisely where true laghuta - smaller
than the smallest, lies. ‘We’ are like a little child.
…no potapanu (‘I-ness’ and ‘my-ness’)
Then what is the third sentence Shrimad Rajchandra
writes?
Questioner: There is no potapanu (no sense of ‘I-ness’
and ‘my-ness’).
Dadashri: Potapanu means ‘I am this and this is mine.’
What does ‘no potapanu’ mean? This body is not mine. This
body verily is not mine, so all that belongs to the body is not
mine. This mind (mun) is not mine. This speech is not mine.
This speech that is being spoken is not ‘my speech’. This
is the ‘original taped record’ that is speaking. He (Ambalal) is
the speaker (vakta). You are the listener (shrota) ‘I’ am the
knower-seer (gnata-drashta). This is the interaction (vyavahar)
of these three. ‘We’ are not the owner of the speech. ‘We’ are