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The Gnani Purush has no ego of doer-ship (garva). ‘I am doing this’ or ‘I have done that’ is all ego of doer-ship. There is no doer-ship in the state of the real Self. Garva-ras is ‘juice’ of doer-ship; it is very sweet. The instant one feels ‘I did it’, he tastes the sweetness of the ego of doer-ship. It is also, tasting the ego of doer-ship if one maintains from within ‘It happened because I was there’. In this world, there is nothing sweeter than the taste of the ego of doer-ship. How does the taste of the ego of doer-ship go away? It goes away by knowing the science (Vignan). Which science? To know, ‘Who is doing all this?’ This science will make you know that you are not the doer. After that the taste of the ego of doer- ship of ‘I am doing’ is not there. The Gnani Purush does not have ‘I did’ with any of his actions. The intoxication of ‘I know’ is a terrible danger! That disease will never go away without the Gnani’s help. It is more dangerous than poison. If you want to have an ego, have the ego of, ‘I don’t know anything.’ When people praise you and you are in an intoxicated state for the whole day; that is called praise intoxication. And garavata is, ‘I did such a great job!’ Doer-ship as in ‘I am the doer’ creates the habit of further tasting the ego of doer-ship. What should one do to not taste the ego of doer-ship? Nothing is to be done. The awareness of, ‘I am the Self,’ separates one from, ‘I am the doer,’ and the taste of doer-ship. The one who has acquired Self-realization simply needs to know ‘I am not the one tasting the ego of doer-ship’; he simply needs to maintain that awareness. There is no wallowing in worldly pleasures (garavata) in the Gnani Purush. The garavata of human beings is like a buffalo sitting in the comfort of cool wet mud on a hot summer day. Nothing would make it budge. Similarly, those who are 37