Aptavani-9
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One is free from everything except the ‘hum’, and this
‘hum’ is very wrong. Instead it would be better to have two
wives; at least his ‘I am something’ (the hum) would go away.
Would that not happen when the wife curses or insults him? But
who will curse this useless bull-like man when he lives by
himself? When he does not have a wife and never comes under
anyone’s control, the ‘hum’ will increase. In addition he has
countless inner spiritual blocks (atkan).
One does not create ego; it is something that is natural to
one’s being. It is there. One is caught in the forces of
circumstances. Ego is nothing but a wrong belief and so one can
become free from it. Whereas this ‘hum-I am something’ is a
different thing. I have seen all those ‘hums’. When one keeps
saying, ‘hum’ ‘hum’. I know what is going to become of him.
I will immediately know what seat he has reserved for himself
(rebirth in a lower life form). Would I not know that?
Questioner: So is this ‘hum-I am someone great’ a
strong ego?
Dadashri: No, ‘hum’ does not touch the ego. The ego
may subside but the ‘hum’ will not.
‘Hum’ will do whatever it chooses. These poor policemen
do not have ‘hum’ of this kind. The ego will subside if you
reason with it or coax it, but this ‘hum’ is a completely different
thing. The ‘hum’ of worldly people will leave after it takes a
beating.
Questioner: Is this ‘hum’ connected with adhyas (the
constant belief of I am the body)?
Dadashri: Adhyas? No. This is all considered adhyas
but ‘hum’ surpasses even adhyas. The belief of ‘I am the
body,’ is a different thing. But you cannot deal with the belief of
‘hum’. The poor body is naïve and so is anger-pride-deceit-
greed. But there is nothing like ‘hum’ in this world because it is
automatically born on its own when there is nothing there.