(with ‘bhai’ there is emphasis on the self – adding ‘bhai’ to a
name is similar to adding the title of ‘Mr.’). ‘I am Lallubhai the
lawyer, did you not recognize me?’ That is ego with rich
materials (ego of showing of his material wealth and
achievements); it is pride with my-ness (abhimaan.) When a
person claims ‘I can beat you’ but he has no strength to do so;
that is called ghamand. If a person does not have a drop of
knowledge nor any money and yet has a lot of arrogance, he is
called a tundmijaji. The one with tumakhi will insult and scorn
respected members of the community! A ghemraji is someone
who has no substance within and without, and yet puts everyone
down. He would say, ‘I can travel around the whole world’
when he is not capable of going even two miles.
Hum is different and ahamkar is different. ‘Hum…hum…I
am everything’ is different, and the ego (ahamkar) is different.
Ego can go away but the ‘Hum’ does not go away easily, it
arises where there is nothing. ‘Hum’ is different from ‘I am
something’!
Ego is the false imposition of the Self, saying ‘I am’ where
the ‘I’ is really not. The ego is present in everyone except in the
Gnani Purush.
Extension of ego is pride (maan). Pride associated with
my-ness (mamata) is abhimaan. To show off, ‘this is my
house…this is my car… is ego with my-ness (abhimaan).
Where there is abhimaan, there is no saiyam; meaning a
state without inner anger, pride, deceit or greed (kashayas);
there is only ignorance there.
The belief of ‘I am Chandulal’ is ego and ‘I am pure Soul’
is the egoless state. After Self-realization, the main ego, the
charging ego that charges new karma is gone but the results of
previous charging which is the discharge ego, still remains.
Absolute knowledge will arise when all the results of this
discharge ego are gone.
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