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how you will have to play the role of ‘Chandulal’ in your worldly
interactions. Your work is done when you realize the answer to,
‘Who am I?’
Suspicion-free about ‘I am Chandulal’ for
countless past lives
No one has really any suspicions or doubts regarding the
issue of, ‘Who am I?’ Even the greatest of ascetics and spiritual
masters have never had suspicions over their identity with their
name. If suspicions were to arise then we can know that they
are approaching samyak darshan - the right vision. However,
that suspicion does not arise in the first place! On the contrary,
they strengthen their ignorance of their identity and because of
that, anger-pride-attachment-greed remain intact. One has held
on to the non-truth, this has caused an awareness of this non-
truth to be the truth. If one hangs on to the non-truth for a long
period of time, that non-truth becomes the truth for him. If the
non-truth becomes deeply engrained in his belief, it becomes the
truth and then he will never come to the realization that it is the
non-truth; it will always be the truth for him.
Hence anger-pride-attachment-greed will go away if
suspicions about one’s true identity arises, but such suspicions
never do. How would they? Who would help you in doing so?
Man has been suspicion-free about his real identity for endless
past lives, who can create suspicion in this matter? Whatever
name one has been given in any life, he assumed it to be the
truth. Suspicion has never arisen about it, has it? How
tremendously difficult this is? And anger-pride-attachment-greed
remains intact because of that. You do not need anger-pride-
attachment-greed if you are the pure Soul and if you are
Chandulal, then you need them. The ‘solution’ of all the
scriptures comes from knowing only this – the knowledge of the
Self. But how can one attain the knowledge of the Self? After
attaining the knowledge of the Self, nothing more remains to be
known, but how is one to know this?