Aptavani-9
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man. Suspicion causes the greatest of miseries and will uproot
your entire Gnan and throw it out. Nothing is going to happen
outside of vyavasthit. What is; is and what is not; is not. Instead
you can ask your sister to serve you your dinner and you can
separate the two in this way but you should never become
suspicious. Suspicion can only make you miserable. Whatever is
in vyavasthit is, and what is not, is not. Do not become
suspicious.
Questioner: But is suspicion not due to the fruition of
karma?
Dadashri: To have suspicions is not considered fruition
of karma. Suspicion is spoiling your inner intent; it means you
are meddling and therefore it will give you misery. Never have
any suspicions.
If someone is talking to your sister do not get suspicious
because now you want to go to moksha, and besides nothing is
going to happen outside of vyavasthit in one lifetime. It will
happen regardless of whether you have awareness of Gnan or
not. No change is going to occur whether you are a Gnani or
agnani. So there is no reason to have suspicions.
Questioner: Because nothing is going to change.
Dadashri: Yes, nothing is going to change and there is
great harm in suspicion.
Questioner: But there is no charging after this Gnan, is
there?
Dadashri: There is no charging, but there is ‘charging’ if
you harbor such suspicions for a very prolonged time to the
extent that you become shankashil (obsessed) with suspicion.
In this state your ego has arisen to the level of a worldly being,
Chandulal. You cannot have suspicions if you want moksha. Still
in the absence of Self-realization, that is exactly what happens.
Whereas here, you get the benefit of Gnan, you get the benefit