Aptavani-9
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As long as one is a doer (of aavega), there is no telling
when it will give rise to emotional agitation (udvega). Yes, once
doer-ship leaves, emotional agitation (udvega) will leave for
sure. Udvega will not occur once the belief of doer-ship is
destroyed. Nevertheless, udvega is still a result of karmic
account. When the sense of doer-ship is broken, the effect of
emotional agitation (udvega) will not manifest as udvega. It will
express in some other form as a minor entanglement or
suffocation.
One man tells me, ‘Dada, I feel as if my head is going to
explode.’ That verily is emotional agitation (udvega). What can
one do? But you silly man, does the head ever explode? The
skull is not likely to crack even with a hammer but just look at
the difficulties of an udvega. It can be such that it will break
open your blood vessels in the head. Emotional agitation
(udvega) takes place even when one does not want it because
udvega is bound to occur as long as one is a doer of aavega.
After attaining our Gnan, doer-ship ceases and therefore
udvega will not occur.
Questioner: But is udvega not the result of karma
caused in the past life?
Dadashri: Yes, one will have to suffer the results of all
past earnings! Does he not ‘enjoy’ the fruits of that udvega?
Questioner: Is there a relationship between anger and
emotional agitation (udvega)?
Dadashri: Yes, udvega occurs only when there is anger.
Aavega too occurs only in the presence of anger. Therefore, as
long as one is a ‘doer’, there will be krodha, maan, maya and
lobh (anger, pride, deceit and greed) and people continue doing
what they do. As long as everything remains within normal limits,
it is called aavega and when it goes out beyond one’s control
it is called udvega.