42 Aptavani-6
There is No Closure for Suspicion( Shanka)
Questioner: But, Dada, it is difficult to arrive at a closure( samadhan).
Dadashri: How can there be closure? There can never be closure for suspicion or doubt in the world. There can be closure for a true fact, but never for suspicion.
What is suspicion( shanka)? It is a tool to ruin the self. Suspicion is the worst thing in this world and it is one hundred percent wrong. And typically it exists where there is no( need for) suspicion. Wherever one keeps faith, therein lies the( need for) suspicion and where suspicion exists, there is nothing there. In this manner, you take a beating from all sides.‘ We’ have seen through Gnan that you continue to get hurt in every way.
Questioner: I did not understand this point about suspicion of,‘ Wherever we have faith, therein lies the( need for) suspicion.’
Dadashri: It is like this: On what basis are you able to measure this vision? Are you able to trust what you see? Look here! Even when you see and witness something, it turns out to be wrong! You see through knowledge gained through your intellect( buddhi) and thoughts. That will give you such a beating that it will reduce you to nothing! That is why‘ we’ tell you to stay away from the intellect. It will not let you sit in peace even for a moment. In your case, everything is good. Your overt, expressed intent( bhavna) is good and that is why you got back on track.
Questioner: After that, I put a lot of emphasis on doing pratikraman( apology to the pure Soul of one you have‘ hurt’ coupled with the remorse of any wrongdoing). I used to get up at dawn and do pratikraman.
Dadashri: You learned about pratikraman here and that