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makes you take a beating for it! And for that, ‘we’ have
compassion for you that after taking the beating you will one day
become wise. One day you will realize, ‘Why are they, the k’s,
beating me? What do I, the Self, have to do with it? What
does Dada have to do with it at all? Why did I ever befriend
them that now I have to suffer?’ You will come to this realization
some day.
Questioner: Dada, I have already experienced it; the
experience is not yet to come, it has already come! My experience
was that I used to feel ‘this old man is harassing me and that I
am going to make this ‘Pateliya’ (derogatory for ‘Patel,’ Dada’s
last name) a ‘sacrificial coconut’ (sacrificial lamb).’ But this old
man (Dadashri) made everything better! I told myself, ‘I am free
at last.’ But, Dada, I cursed you so much that there was no
more cursing left. But from within I continued to feel, ‘This Dada
is right.’
Dadashri: ‘We’ know all that even sitting at home. ‘We’
also told you once that ‘we’ do not have any objections, even
if you say negative things about ‘us.’ You just keep coming here.
One day, all that will be cleansed! ‘We’ put no value to whatever
negative things you say. All ‘we’ are focused on is to see what
is beneficial for you and your spiritual progress. ‘We’ continue
to look out for you, your family and everyone else’s welfare and
spiritual good. You speak according to your inherent nature, the
non-Self (prakruti), but your vision is really not so. Even your
tendencies are not so and neither are your thoughts. ‘We’ see
and ‘we’ know all that.
Therefore, learn to recognize whether the ‘baggage within’
is your friend or your enemy who gives you a beating. When
such enemies come, say, ‘Welcome, this is your home,’ and
then send them away.
Do you understand and realize that whatever it (the k)
shows you within is wrong; it is one hundred percent wrong.