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anyway. ‘Dada’ has not objected to you having snacks. But
what has left you stranded and dangling? Look for that atkan.
And if that connection is still there, tell me about it. If it is
something you cannot tell me, then find out what it is, and if you
go after it and do extraordinary spiritual effort (parakram), then
it will be fine. For that, get Gnani’s blessings (do Vidhi) here,
and in your mind ask for the energy to do so; then the energy
will manifest within. There is nothing else.
Nikachit (karma that has to be suffered) will not let you
off. Nikachit means that you have no choice but suffer through
the effects (fruit of the karma) no matter how desperately you
do not wish for it. Even when you feel, ‘I do not want anything
now,’ the karma that will drag you into it is called nikachit.
With whatever inner intent (bhaav) it was bound, it will dissipate
with the same bhaav. Therefore, there is no problem even with
nikachit karma. This whole worldly life (sansar) is nothing but
nikachit. Now a man may not have any interest in sex or a
woman may not have any interest in sex, but they have no
choice but suffer through the act. That verily is called nikachit
karma. The problem, however, is with atkan. One needs to
‘see’ where he still gets excited with temptation of pleasure
(galgalia). That is where one loses awareness and becomes
deluded (murchhit). Do you understand the word galgalia?
Questioner: I have heard the word, but I haven’t
understood it exactly.
Dadashri: If a boy from a very respectable family gets
into a habit of dancing in plays and theatre, and someone switches
his interest and takes him away from the dancing, he may not
have a problem for a year or two. But if he happens to pass by
a theatre and reads the billboard, he will have galgalia. The old
habit and delusion will overcome him. It will make him lose
awareness and he will lie to you and somehow get in. He will
not even have awareness of what lies to tell.