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no one makes a decision for it. On the contrary, he will push
away thoughts about death saying, ‘No, no, it is nothing like
that. This is just a thought; I am still in good health. The body
is good enough for another fifty years!’
But the one who is impartial (nishpakshpati) will recognize
everything. Can you not tell when a person is packing his bags
that he is ready to leave? So when the bags are being packed
within, and when we are also able see it and yet we do not
bother looking; then is that not a mistake on our part? In the old
days, many people were straight-forward and with simple karma
effects. They used to say, ‘After five days, on the day of agiyaras
(eleventh day of lunar fortnight), I am going to leave this world,’
and that is exactly what would happen. So do you think there
are different rules for other people? The rules are the same. This
is just one’s illusion (moha) that creates attachment to the worldly
life. At the time of his dying, if the family tells him, ‘Uncle, now
recite the Trimantra (three mantras that destroy all obstacles
in life),’ he will not do it and, on the contrary, he will think,
‘They don’t have any sense!’ Just look at him! What a sack of
intelligence! No one will give him even a dime for his intelligence
if he were to try and sell it. The uncle’s mind is preoccupied with
his daughter’s marriage and he keeps thinking, ‘My daughter is
not married; she is getting left behind.’ Why would one not
know about his death when he has become impartial
(nishpakshpati)? He is afraid of death. He is not afraid of going
out of town or to a pilgrimage because he feels that he will
return. Hey, you! What is the guarantee that you will return from
there either?
I would whisper to a ship, ‘Sink if you want to, but that
is not ‘our’ wish.’ A ship has been launched in the water to
make profit, but because of the ocean it may even sink one day.
That is how you speak to your body, ‘Leave when you have to,
but that is not my wish.’ This is because the law of nature is so
wonderful that it is not going to let anyone go. No one is going