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he will say, ‘It was not to my liking.’ Is that not also a kind of
moha? Leaving some food behind on the plate is moha and
eating more is also a moha.
And the one who does not have any attachment-abhorrence
(raag-dwesh) has no effect illusion (moha) in him; he will take
whatever comes in front of him. He will not have any other
problems in the process; he has no moha of any kind.
But discharge moha (charitra moha) has no value in
itself. One can have a ton of moha, but because it is discharge
moha; it has no value at all. Charitra moha is the moha that
remains after the illusion of ‘I am Chandulal’ (darshan moha)
goes away. It has no value. For the one whose darshan moha
has not gone, even if he is a great ascetic/renouncer (tyagi), and
if he were to ask for even a little extra helping of vegetables,
then that moha has a tremendous load in terms of karmic liability.
Hey! Here we (mahatmas) ask for extra vegetables every day
but we do not get anything (charging new karma), whereas the
ascetic asks only once and he gets so much liability of karma?
The answer is, ‘Yes, in just one day one can bind a
tremendous liability of karma’ because that is real moha,
specifically moha that charges karma and, therefore, the entire
reward of his (karmic) earnings from renouncing is lost. But no
matter how much moha the mahatmas ‘have,’ there is no loss
for them at all. One has to understand just this. Discharge moha