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the awareness, ‘I am pure Soul (Shuddhatma),’ remains and
that is called vitarag (a state of non-attachment to any worldly
things, including one’s own body). Despite this, the raag-dwesh
will be apparent, and they will continue to occur. Lord Mahavir
has called that discharging, ‘illusionary conduct (charitra moha).’
(Lord Mahavir was a fully awakened, enlightened being in India,
2500 years ago).
The main illusion (moha, darshan moha or drashti-moha;
that which is the illusion of ‘I am Chandulal’) is gone. The one
who was going in the wrong direction is now going in the right
direction. He has attained the right vision, enlightened vision, but
the results of previous causes which were due to illusion (moha)
in the past life, will bring forth effect illusion (effect moha); that
will still manifest in this life. That is called ‘conduct under the
effect of illusion’ (vartan moha). People will even point out
your illusion (moha) to you, telling you that you have a lot of
moha, and you have to say, ‘Yes I do.’
If Lord Mahavir was to personally come here and someone
was to ask Him, ‘Why do these mahatmas (Self-realized
followers of Dadashri) keep eating potatoes over and over again?
Has their moha for it not gone yet?’ – do you know what the
Lord would say to him? The Lord will tell him, ‘It is a moha,
but it is charitra moha (character-deluding; deludes the right
conduct); it is a discharge moha.’ They do not have a specific
desire for potatoes, but it is that they (potatoes) have come in
front of them, and so the moha arises. And once the meal is
done, they have nothing internally, no desire anymore. The extra
interest (visheshata) in food is also charitra moha. Eating just
enough to satisfy hunger is not considered charitra moha,
whereas when one starts asking, ‘Bring me the vegetables, bring
me some chutney,’ even before he sits down to settle his hunger,
then it is evident to us that he has moha for that. And while
eating, if he leaves a little lentil soup behind, that too is his
charitra moha. If you ask him why he did not finish the soup,