means that , at the time of terrible pain You remain in the home department and do not move away from being the Self . No shifting in the relative self happens whatsoever ; that is the penance to be done ! Being firm in , ‘ All these are results of the non-Self , they are not Mine ’, is the penance . And that is what gives moksha ! Knowing that the suffering is of the non-Self leads to the continuous ‘ knowing ’ of this . And if it is felt that , ‘ this is happening to me ’, then one has to suffer . Furthermore if it is expressed that , ‘ I can ’ t tolerate this ’, the suffering is multiplied tenfold ! The effect ( asar ) happens according to the words spoken . There ( where suffering is concerned ) you get the work done with chivalry .
Just look at what the nature of the Self is like ! It immediately becomes what it envisions . If it envisions one with happiness , it becomes happy , and if it envisions being sad , it becomes sad ! Therefore , be aware that envisioning of sadness does not arise . You should not say , ‘ my head is hurting ’; there you can only say , ‘ Chandubhai ’ s ’ head is hurting !’ Do not become engrossed with the results that happen to the non-Self .
The Gnani as well as the Tirthankars are subject to the suffering of pain ( ashata-vedaniya ), but they simply ‘ know ’ the suffering ; they ‘ know ’ it through absolute knowledge .
The chit is only to be kept in the Self , not in the suffering or in temporary things . When the chit remains in the eternal it becomes pure . Thereafter one becomes a videhi ( beyond the body complex ). The energy of the Self is only in the realm of the Self . Once that arises the work is done .
What is known as obstinacy ( aadayee )? Say a person makes a mistake and he is aware of it but if someone asks him why he made the mistake , he will respond by insisting that it was the right thing to do ; that is known as obstinacy . If he is aware of the mistake and covers it up ; that is considered the biggest form of obstinacy .
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