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saiyam will return. In penance, you have to ‘heat’ your mind up.
You have to make it ‘burn’ in the fire of penance. But ‘ours’
(Akram science) is a different kind of penance. The penance
that we have is the penance of ‘Gnan (knowledge of the Self),
darshan (vision of the Self), charitra (conduct as the Self) and
tapa (penance as the Self)’. Our penance is ‘done’ during the
times when the body experiences pain (ashata). This is because
as long there is charged karma in past life (puran; ‘causes’),
you will have to do penance until its discharge (galan) is
completely done. Will you gain anything by complaining and
fussing? The tapa (penance) has to continue even when your
heart wrenches in agony, to the point where it makes you
scream out loud. What does penance mean? What is the
ultimate penance? To not allow the ‘home department’ (the Self)
and the ‘foreign department’ (the non-Self) to become one, is
what the Lord regards as the ultimate penance.
If the wrong type of purusharth is done, it may even
become undone. You yourself are “wholly and solely” responsible
for what you do. If you want to do the right thing, then do the
right thing. And if you want to do the wrong thing, then do the
wrong thing. This Gnan is such that you will not experience any
worries. Worries can kill a person. A man was telling me that
unless he had worries, he could not get his work done, so to
leave his worries alone. So I said to him, “Very well, do not take
my Gnan then. Just come to satsang (a gathering of Self-
realized beings) as you are.” He was thinking that he would only
be able to work if he had worries, and that without them, he
could not work. He did not know whether he was doing it or
someone else. According to his understanding, he was the one
doing. He just believed that he did it all.
The Exact Understanding of Vyavasthit
Questioner: What is the relationship between prarabdha
and vyavasthit?