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something or not? This is how some have become sadhus. Only
five to ten percent of them are real sadhus. There are some who
leave behind millions of dollars in order to become a sadhu. If
you ask them, “Did you not enjoy playing with all that money?
Did you not enjoy playing with all that wealth? Did you not
enjoy your life with your wife? What have you come here for?
What toys have you come here to play?” They will say, “I have
come here for the salvation of the world.” You fool! In which
previous life have you not done that? How are you going to do
good for the world when you have not done anything for your
own self?
Now for how long can such lack of understanding
continue? Will you not have to follow the right understanding of
the vitarags? At the same time they also sing, “Get rid of par-
ramanata (dwelling in the non-self), get rid of par-ramanata.”
What do you understand by par-ramanata? Everything that
you play with is par-ramanata. So how would you get rid of all
that? Some say, “They are looking after the well-being of the
society. They are increasing the number of Jains.” Why would
you worry whether the number of Jains increase or decrease?
Why would you worry about that, which Lord Mahavir did not
concern Himself with? Your guru’s guru, his guru and the guru
of the whole world, Lord Mahavir, has not worried about
increasing the number of Jains, then who are you to be worrying
about that? Is your chit on a merry-go-round or what? You
would have been better off increasing children at home; you
would have at least five or a dozen. But instead, you abandoned
your children! How can you call someone like this, a Jain? Will
you not have to understand the truth? How long are you going
to talk this way without any substance? You will have to know
the truth, and then you will get to know the Self. Swa-ramanata
will arise as par-ramanata goes away.
Do you now understand what ramanata is? Till the very
end they make you ‘play’ with the scriptures. The guru engages