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Aptavani-2
Dwelling in the Self : Dwelling in the non-Self
The knowledge of the vitarag Lords (Gnan) is for the one
who has married without his wish, it has happened without his
deliberate intent. How can this Gnan be for the one who has
deliberately, enthusiastically and willingly entered into marriage?
This Gnan of vitarags is for those who are compelled to get
married, compelled to eat and drink. ‘To be compelled; where
there is no alternative’ is a stage of one kind. One does it in spite
of not wanting to. Surely you like something in life, do you not?
Questioner : I do have likes, but I cannot put my finger
on it and say ‘this is it’ for sure.
Dadashri : But there is ‘this’ something, is there not?
Your existence is on ‘this’ something. What is one living on?
One lives on the foundation of this ‘this’. If he did not, he would
attain the Self. Currently the self (worldly self) is absorbed in
playing in ‘this’ (in ramanata). If playing in ‘this’ (ramanata)
becomes unpleasant and unattractive, then the attainment of the
Self is inevitable. But, because there is the play, interest and
absorption in ‘this’, the self says, “You are fine, carry on as you
are in your town. I am fine here in my town!” The play of the
self is always in one location or the other (non-self or the Self).
Because it is at this other location (the world, the non-self), one
is able take that as the foundation of life. If the play (ramanata)
does not exist in any subatomic particle (parmanu), in the non-
self (pudgal), then there is no go, except to attain the Self. ‘We’
have no play (delving, enjoyment, absorption) into even a single
subatomic particle of the pudgal, the non-self. ‘We’ are
continuously absorbed in the Self as the Self (atma ramanata).