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is not called renunciation through vitaragata. Renunciation
through vitaragata is an internal renunciation; in this one will not
have the intoxication (keyf) of ‘I did it’. Whereas in renunciation,
due to unfolding of one’s karmas, he claims ‘I renounced’.
There is nothing but ego in such renunciation and it causes
tremendous intoxication. The intoxication of renunciation is very
subtle and one which a person cannot get rid of, even through
intense suffering. So then how can he attain moksha with such
intoxication of ego? Moksha will be attained by those who are
not intoxicated and definitely not by those who are. The
intoxication of an alcoholic is better than this intoxication,
because in the former, it will come down when you pour water
over his head. People are hopelessly caught up in tyaga-
vairagya (renunciation and dispassion towards worldly life), but
moksha is not that easy to attain.
Renunciation is that which does not give rise to attachment
(moha). The renunciants are merely caught up in their inner
attraction (murchha, moha) for renunciation. How can you call
that renunciation? Renunciation is for the one who has great
courage. It is something that comes from within, it should be
natural and spontaneous; it cannot be contrived. True renunciation
is when there is no inner tendency to renounce or acquire. True
renunciation is that in which the renunciant is not absorbed in the
renunciation or the acquisition (I am Chandulal and I am doing
the renouncing or acquiring). That which is commonly referred
to as renunciation, is renunciation with the aim of internal
renunciation, nevertheless it is not true renunciation.
An ascetic used to sing everyday, “Tyaga cannot last
without vairagya.” (i.e. renunciation cannot last without dispassion;
vairagya) So ‘we’ asked him, “Maharaj, and what would
vairagya not last without?” Maharaj said he did not know. ‘We’
then told him, “Vairagya does not last without inquiry, critical
thinking.” This statement is applicable to the Kramic path. It is
a very arduous path, in which one moves back and forth