Aptavani-2
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Renunciation
There are two kinds of renunciations (tyaga): Renunciation
through the ego and natural and spontaneous renunciation;
renunciation that is evident as natural conduct.
In fact, the ego is inherent in the very word ‘tyaga’ i.e. to
renounce. Renunciation cannot be achieved without the ego and
that is why one will always have the belief and awareness of ‘I
renounced’. This belief will always remain, whereas when
renunciation is natural and spontaneous, such awareness does
not remain. One has conquered renunciation when one does not
even think about things that need to be renounced. What is the
meaning of natural and spontaneous renunciation? The true
renunciant is one who does not even think about renouncing. It
is when one is not reminded of his worldly possessions. True
non-renunciation is when there is no trace of any acquisition
(parigraha) in his mind. In the path of liberation, there are no
conditions that one has to renounce (tyaga) or acquire (grahan).
One only needs to renounce two things in this world: The
ego (I am Chandulal) and mamata (this is mine). Nothing else
remains to be renounced when these two are renounced.
The Lord has said that when a person renounces due to
the unfolding of his karma (udayakarma), it is not the
renunciation of vitaragata (non attachment). It is the unfolding of
one’s karma that makes one fast, makes one do samayik etc.,
but he claims, ‘I did it’. Everything that the prakruti (non-self)
makes you do forcibly is dependent upon the unfolding of the
karma. When the prakruti makes you renounce, how does it
benefit your soul (how is going to help you in liberation)? That