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upon you a higher spiritual state : if you make a wry face, it
(spiritual state) will escape you. Whoever has come to me with
cups of poison, I have drunk them with a smiling face, while
blessing them and have become Mahadevji (Lord Shiva).
As long as your belief of ‘I am Chandulal’ exists,
everything will taste bitter, but for me the poison has turned into
nectar. Respect or insults, sweet or bitter are all dualities. From
now on we are free from such dualities; we are beyond such
dualities. That is why we do these satsangs! After all, eventually
everyone wants to achieve the state beyond duality, do they
not?
When someone deals you anything bitter and you drink
it with a smile, blessing him or her, your ego will be destroyed
and you become that much more free. Not only that but your
opponent will also react from your positive reaction and change
for the better. He too will feel better. He will realize his weakness
in being your adversary and appreciate your spiritual strength
for taking the insult with a smile.
Do you think you would drink anything bitter of your own
volition? How benevolent are those who make you drink it?
Those who serve you (the bitter drink) are like a mother. You
have no choice but to drink. You will have to take the bitter in
order to become nilkantha.
‘You’ should tell ‘Chandubhai’ : ‘you will have to take
this bitter drink a hundred times.’ That is all and there after he
will get used to it. We have to force bitter medicine to a child
but once he realizes that the medicine is good for him he will not
have to be forced to drink it, he will drink it on his own. Once
you make a decision that you want to drink all the bitterness
served to you, you will be able to do so. It is easy to drink
‘sweet’ but you have to know how to drink the ‘bitter’ also.
Will you not have to drink it some time or another? Besides it