Anger
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Dadashri : After acquiring Gnan, when you get angry,
there is no problem, as long as you ask for forgiveness, because
doing pratikraman will set you free. And if you cannot directly
ask for forgiveness from that person, you should do it internally
and this will also set you free.
Questioner : You mean in front of everyone?
Dadashri : It is fine if you cannot directly ask for
forgiveness and you do it internally. These faults are lifeless and
in the form of ‘discharge’ (Dadashri’s term for the dissipation of
effects of previous causes. The term ‘discharge’ applies only for
those who have been graced with his separation from cause and
effects of karma, in the Gnan Vidhi). A ‘discharge’ fault means
that it is non-living, which means that the consequences will be
minimal.
THE SENSE OF DOERSHIP SUSTAINS ANGER
You are not the one making things happen. It is the
kashayas, the weaknesses within you of anger, pride, attachment,
and greed that run everything. Only the rule of these kashayas
prevails. When you acquire the knowledge of your real Self,
these kashayas leave. When one gets angry, he feels remorse
but of what use is it if he does not know how to do pratikraman?
One is freed when he knows how to do pratikraman.
How long can these kashayas last? The kashayas will
remain as long as one believes; ‘I am Chandulal.’ This belief
gives support to the sense that the kashayas are his, ‘I am
angry, I am unhappy etc.’
It is when one attains the awareness, ‘I am pure Self’ that
the sense of ‘I am Chandulal’ is broken and the kashayas are
destroyed. Without this awareness all efforts to remove kashayas,
in fact perpetuate them. When one’s anger is controlled through
his ego, the ego increases and when greed is overcome with the
ego, the ego increases.