Aged Care Insite Issue 112 | Apr-May 2019 | Page 31

workforce in a residential aged care facility was made. It was heartbreaking and one of the hardest conversations I needed to have. How do you tell someone that no matter how much you want to, you just can’t be their carer anymore? It felt quiet and lonely without anyone to look after. The house was suddenly empty, but I knew it was the right decision. Within the first two weeks of living in an aged care facility, Nanna made two escape attempts, immaculately packing up an entire room, including turning off electrical switches and pulling out plugs. Fortunately, it never went beyond packing and a disorientated protest with facility staff. Eventually, Nanna settled into living in an aged care facility and at times was so disorientated she thought she was still living at home. Nanna became friends with other residents and staff alike and was still able to go with family on excursions. Keeping active and socially engaged no doubt extended her life. Nanna passed away six months later surrounded by music and loved ones. I have often thought about what advice I would give if I was talking to my former self starting the carer journey, in the hope that it may make it a little easier in some way. I would tell my former self: Enjoy the present, rather than worry about the future. Reach out for help at the start and allow others to walk with you on your journey. Whether it be family, friends or local organisations, support is there if you allow it. My nanna and I received some amazing support from Carers Victoria, the Cancer Council and our local palliative care team, just to name a few. Grief can be present in atypical ways. Allow yourself to feel it rather than deny it. It’s okay to tell people what you are going through – it might even make you feel a little better. You can’t do everything, just do the best you can. I wasn’t in a position to resign from my work at the hospital (and to be honest it was a welcome distraction at times), however I did reduce my hours to four days a week. It was one of the best decisions I made, and I was a better employee and carer for it. Even in the darkest of times, joy can still be found, and laughter can still be present. A carer’s journey is rewarding but challenging. I wouldn’t change my experience for anything in the world. I learnt to appreciate the little things, to not take things for granted, and I discovered a strength of character beyond what I thought existed. More importantly, I was able to spend precious time with someone in the last stages of her life and made memories I will cherish for ever.  ■ This article is dedicated to the late Roma Dunn.  agedcareinsite.com.au 29