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I WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR STRENGTH AND PATIENCE. BECAUSE I KNOW WE WILL HAVE TO MEET ONE DAY.
I WILL CONTINUE TO WORK ON MY ANGER ISSUES SO THAT IM NOT FORCED TO SEEK VIOLENCE WHENEVER WE DO MEET.
IM NOT DOING THIS JUST FOR ME BUT FOR MY DAUGHTERS.
GOD HELP ME.
BUT AS I MATURE IM LEARNING HOW TO FORGIVE. I THINK ITS BECAUSE MY DAUGHTERS ARE GETTING OLDER AND I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE YOU. IM TEACHING THEM FORGIVENESS. IM BEING A MOTHER. SOMETHING THAT YOU NEVER WAS, TO ME. IM TRYING MY HARDEST TO PROTECT THEM. BECAUSE I DONT WANT THEM TO EVER HAVE TO ENDURE BEING RAPED OR MOLESTED. I DONT WANT THEM TO KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE. I GUESS YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME SOMETHING. IM LEARNING TO FORGIVE, AND THE BIGGEST FORGIVENESS COMES WITH ME FORGIVING YOU. WE WONT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP BUT IM AT PEACE. I REALIZED I CANT CHANGE WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST JUST HAVE TO BE STRONG AND MOLD MY FUTURE. I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY. THE MAN THAT RAISED ME AS A CHILD AND LOVED ME NO MATTER WHAT IS MY FATHER. NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT.