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JANE ( cont ’ d ) lot of people telling me I was “ enough .” Not going to lie – nothing happens overnight . But when it does happen – it ’ s pretty wonderful .
ELLA I cannot even think of something being wonderful .
JANE It ’ s there . You can reach it . But wonder doesn ’ t slap you in the face like a razor does . It asks you to open your eyes and believe in it .
ELLA I don ’ t know . Right now , I do like the rush . When I pierce the skin and the blood comes out , there ’ s nothing else on my mind . I am present . Just me . My arm . My blood . I forget everything . School . Expectations . All my faults – they disappear and I am fully my own person .
JANE Are you ? Are you really your own person if cutting your arms owns you ?
I can control it .
That ’ s what I thought .
I ’ m not you .
ELLA
JANE
ELLA
JANE No , and I shouldn ’ t make assumptions . Sorry .
Did you just … apologize … to me ?
Yes .
That ’ s a first in my life .
ELLA
JANE
ELLA
JANE I ’ m glad to finally be first in something .
ELLA What happened with the guy – who told your parents ?