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Disclaimer: This poem discusses sensitive topics regarding body images, dieting, and eating disorders. If you

are triggered by these concepts, then please refrain from reading this. This poem was created solely to inform

It is a painful process, one of doubt and resistance 

But because it matters, 

It is easy for me to give in 

I would be dishonest if I said that 

There is a distinction between letting go and  giving up 

The need to be smaller is stronger than everything else 

I could never understand the mindset of someone who believes 

Cravings are uncontrollable and it is okay to feed the soul every once and a while 

others about the harmful effects of social media and body shaming and the power of thought. If you or someone

else you know are dealing with or believe you have an eating disorder, please reach out to a professional for

help.  

  process, one of doubt and resistance 

But because it matters, 

It is easy for me to give in 

I would be dishonest if I said that 

There is a distinction between letting go and  giving up 

The need to be smaller is stronger than everything else 

I could never understand the mindset of someone who believes 

Cravings are uncontrollable and it is okay to feed the soul every once and a while 

China Doll  By Audrey N.

 

I  am  broken 

Never could I say  that 

My body deserves to be  fed 

Because 

Skipping meals  is  considered  normal 

Even if others tell me so, I will never accept that 

I am skinny  enough 

Nobody could deny  me  of the fact  that 

I could always be  skinnier 

Undoubtedly,  I recognize 

Eating ice cream will make me  fat 

So, it  is a figment of my imagination persuading me  that 

Eating one cookie will not make a difference in my  weight 

Have faith  in my words, for the truth  is 

Salads and cardio are the  key to  immediate results 

Society invented the  myth  that 

Beauty is determined by  personality 

Even so, there  is a reason  why 

Curves and rolls are a rare  sighting 

When I look at pictures online 

They  become  my true  incentive 

Though  when  I  speak positively to myself 

Those words are nothing but  lies 

Once  people’s  comments  turn to  maliciously  intended criticism 

I remember  that 

Crash diets  will fix my  problems  

It  has  never occurred to me  that 

The  life I was given  should be  embraced 

Now, more than ever, I realize  that 

Obesity leads to disadvantages i n  society 

I  am tired of hearing  that 

My self-worth  will always remain  constant 

Because either way 

Measuring and weighing  show accurate progress 

Only those who are not truly devoted will say that 

It is  a painful process, one of doubt and resistance 

But  because it matters, 

It  is easy  for me  to give in 

I would be dishonest if I  said  that 

There is a distinction between letting go and  giving  up 

The  need to  be  smaller  is stronger than everything  else 

I could never understand  the mindset of someone who  believes 

Cravings are uncontrollable and it is okay to feed the soul every once and awhile

Measuring and weighing  show accurate progress 

Only those who are not truly devoted will say that