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during the trip, I felt pressured and anxious. Many worries were constantly occupying my mind: “What
if nothing goes right? What if the students don’t enjoy the camp? What if we are blamed for not planning
a successful camp?” As the camp went on, plans continued to be shifted. We also came to realize that this
camp was a much bigger scale than we had originally anticipated. The fears continued to pile up.
But the Sunday before we began our camps, we visited a church, and it was there that God provided me
with the exact encouragement that I needed. The passage was from Psalm 115 and the whole sermon was
on trusting in the Lord and that He is our shield, our protector. In verses 9-11 it says “O Israel, trust in the
LORD! He is their help and their shield. O house of Aaron, trust in the LORD! He is their help and their
shield. You who fear the LORD, trust in the LORD! He is their help and their shield.” In the moment that
I was most caught up in my own fears and beginning to let it engulf me, God provided me with the perfect
message and verse to hold on to. He reminded me of who He is. He is my God who protects, He is my
shield, He is my help – all He asks of me is to trust in Him.
So that is what I chose to do during that week of chaos. And to be honest, it was a constant battle. There
were many times where I wanted to give up and to do what other people wanted, to do what may have
pleased them because then at least I wouldn’t be looked at as a failure. But God always redirected me and
my focus back to Him. He reminded me not to be fearful, for he is my protector, my shield. He reminded
me of His Kingdom purpose – His heart to love each of the students we met and His desire for me and
my team to be part of that beautiful process through this camp. And this was much more important than
my fears. We chose to trust God and He was faithful. The one phrase our team repeated was “only by the
grace of God.” It was truly only by His grace that the camps were completed safely, and I trust that He
allowed us to plant the seeds in the hearts of these different students.
God revealed the many ways that I am still lacking – my desire to please others, my fears, and my fragility
and constant reliance on my own power. But He didn’t just open my eyes to these areas and leave me on
my own. He then guided me and showed me what it looks like to stand firm. He helped me realize how
I need to work on focusing solely on His kingdom purpose. This process is not over just because I’ve re-
turned to America. I believe that God will continue to shape me for His kingdom, and I ask that you will
pray for me so that I will stand firm and be used for His glory.
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