Zenspiration Magazine January Issue | Page 102

The next day (despite an annoying hip injury I’m still trying to shake,) I got out of bed and said to my wife “I’m off for a run.” With a cacophony of noise from the thoughts, questions and “jobs to do”, screaming for my attention inside my mind, I needed a release. It wasn’t a long run – an easy 6km. The hip hurt and the legs were heavy, but the steady rhythm of my footsteps and breathing, the win d in my face and the familiar sense of just being – escaping from the world into my running mindset – helped me process what had happened, think about mum and reflect on life. As the trees and paths went by, it made me think how quickly a life seems to pass after it has ended when it is someone close to us; but when they are alive, you don’t expect, or can’t imagine, them not being there for you. In some ways a lot like a marathon. The distance seems insurmountable at the start of the race and at times the miles seem to click over at an interminably slow rate. But when you cross the finish line, the race seems to have passed quickly. A day or so later you’re even thinking that it wasn’t so bad – when in the middle of the race you might have been thinking “What idiot signed my up for this torture!” – and it was probably you. We often forget to embrace the race when we’re in it, and only appreciate it when it’s over. Life is a marathon. There are times during a race when you feel that you are indestructible and could run forever. At other times, you can find yourself counting down your footsteps to the next drink stop and cursing the next hill on the horizon as you push the limits of your body and mind. Life is the same. You have your good days, and your bad days. Self doubt, fear, pain, anger and despair. And then other days there is joy, laughter, pride, excitement and success. The Yin and Yang of life. ZENSPIRATION.ORG 102