Yours Truly Magazine 2020 | Page 48

Far Removed Victor Terrien For all the talk of love, what about the importance of grace? Not the contrived, far-removed grace from a savior that in speech people tend to toss around like pennies in a collection plate. The grace that requires no religion, only decency. Composure in the face of things going wrong. Lack of grace shows entitlement. Entitlement comes from pride. I don’t need some kind of outrageous spontaneity, just the kind that makes life worth waking up for regardless of the weather. I slept through the job being done, my fear and anxiety keeping me from finding the will to stay upright. Routine destroys spontaneity. The lie I told myself up to this point will be shattered once and for all: I’m not happy. That was the truth ringing like a church bell through the town of my heart. And how it flies. O how it flies toward a heaven my soul will never know.