Banning has taught and imparted that you’re okay with living in the
into me is the need and desire for mess – and more importantly
feedback. I would not be as strong Jesus is too. What advice do you
or a capable leader if I didn’t have have for people that are feeling the
him and others like him giving me pressure as they’re trying to walk
feedback on a consistent basis, out this balancing act?
challenging me and pushing me to
grow. Not letting me stay the same [KWS] I think we’ve got to work
when I make mistakes or respond really hard at letting that go because
in a negative way, confronting me there is an unspoken expectation
on it and saying, “Kim, you can’t for people in ministry – whether
respond that way. For who you they are a speaker, a worship
are, and the leader you are called leader, or whatever – that they are
to be, you can’t respond like this.” speaking, writing or leading songs
All of the years of feedback and from a place of victory. Like they’ve
challenging has caused me to already made it out on the other
grow and I couldn’t have done it side of whatever private challenge
without that, it’s shaped who I or struggle they may have gone
am as a leader. I actively look for through. The message they are
feedback in the people that I’m That’s what matters to me, I really try to keep
leading and in my team because I want to be it in my mind.
communicating to people – while it
may be an excellent message like, “This is what
a strength and a good leader to them. I give
you should do, this is how it should look, this is
feedback to my team because I know that this This probably formed more in me after becoming what you need”, doesn’t reveal the journey that
is the greatest way to grow. I encourage the a parent. The way that I see Jesus as a father in we’ve been on and expose our hearts, and that
people that I’m leading to seek out feedback my own life, he meets me right where I am. That can make it look unattainable. Someone who is
from people. There are lot of things that I could could be in a good place or a not so good place, sitting there in the mess, in the hardest season
say that Banning has imparted to me but that but He is a father and meets me right where I of their life, feeling like, “I can’t see God, I can’t
is probably the one that I’ve seen the most fruit am. Becoming a mother has definitely moved a hear God, are You there?” I think it’s really
out of in my life. lot more love and compassion in me towards important that for those of us on the platform
people. When I’m leading the congregation I who have a voice to speak, that we are real
[WM] When you’re leading worship how do want to be like Jesus and I want to meet people with people. You don’t’ have to do it every time,
you strike the balance between meeting the right where they are. Sometimes I find myself in every season, but I think there’s a balance.
congregation where they are at versus taking in a room where people are not ready to go as them to where the Holy Spirit is leading you deep as I would like to lead them in worship It would be kind of crazy if I got up on the stage
to go? and I try to be sensitive to that. I’m going to in the middle of this and started sobbing about
push people and go as deep as we can, but my anger at God and the fact my step-dad
[KWS] I lead worship in lots of different there are definitely times when I walk away and passed away and God didn’t heal him. I will
congregations. Some are totally ready to go into go, “We weren’t really ready to go as deep as I share that I am on a journey of wrestling through
really deep waters and really encounter Jesus wanted, but we did go somewhere and we did this with the Lord, that I don’t understand why
in a deep way. Others are more conservative accomplish something.” I don’t’ want to judge things happen the way that they did, but that
and the style of worship leading that I do is that. I just trust God so much and if I go off I’m pressing into God. My hunger for Him far
new and foreign to them. I love all of that. I just stage and go, “Did I do what you wanted me outweighs this wrestle. I think that’s what
want to meet people where they are like Jesus to do? Did I follow you well?” and if the answer people connect and relate to, not just the, “This
does for me. I’m not afraid of taking time and to that is “yes” then I’m good. That’s all I need. is how it should be” but the, “I walked through
teaching them and leading them. When I walk I don’t need it to be a certain way every time. this and it wasn’t always perfect but this is what
off stage I’m not going to make a judgement of
He taught me, this is what He’s doing, and this
whether I failed or not, or of it was good or not, [WM] A lot of worship team members feel is how I’ve made it out on the other side.” I
I’m just going to ask the Lord “did I do what you pressured to live mess-free lives, but with this can’t be perfect, I’m a human on a journey with
wanted me to do, did I partner with you well?” disc you seem to be sending the message Jesus, which is the truth of who we are.
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