Worship Musician August 2020 | Page 48

YOUTH WORSHIP TEAM PERFECT OR EXCELLENT? | Vance & Michelle Shepherd At a recent worship event, one of our vocalists was distraught to the point of tears about not being able to hit a note exactly like she wanted to. I walked by the restroom after our sound check and run thru, and could hear her crying. Her mom was trying to console and encourage her, but it wasn’t working. I knocked on the door, asked if I could come in, and I could see that she was distraught about it, beating herself up to the point that there was no joy in her singing and leading worship. Using her voice to worship God was actually turning into something negative, something humiliating and stressful to her, and she was not able to worship with the freedom she had experienced before. To see her so upset made me really upset, because I knew where her head was at, and I wanted to do whatever I could to get her to see it for what it really was. It’s something that every singer or musician has to face down at some point. I had a serious heart to heart talk with her, and explained to her that what she was feeling was anxiety, stress and depression from trying to be “perfect”. It’s a sly tool that the enemy uses to render us ineffective in our worship. And as vocalists, we go through so many emotions, continually battling the idea of perfection, of not being good enough. Singing is a vulnerable and emotional thing, and we can negatively spin out of control if we don’t have a healthy grasp of why we’re doing it, and Who we’re doing it for. I believe that trying to attain perfection is the enemy of excellence in worship, and here’s why… when we are focused on being technically perfect, the focus turns inward, it’s on ourselves, and our own capability (or lack of). Perfectionism is a bottomless pit. Our brain says, “I’m never good enough” or, “Everybody will see me as flawed if I don’t do this perfectly” or, “I only feel good about myself if I meet my own standard of perfection”. Perfectionists are always disappointed in themselves, and can become paralyzed by fear. 1 Corinthians 10:31 says this, “So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God”. Striving for excellence demonstrates that you have a good work ethic, strength of character, and integrity in what you do. Perfectionism, on the other hand, sets standards that are so high they either can’t be attained, or only with great difficulty. Perfectionists tend to believe that anything short of perfection is horrible, that even minor imperfections lead to catastrophe. Over time, you might even start to believe that you’re not as capable as others, so you should just give up. And that’s why we have to stay mindful of why we do what we do, and Who we do it for. A FEW HELPFUL THINGS IN THIS BATTLE OF THE MIND AND HEART Realize that perfectionism is the enemy of joy. When you feel the need to be perfect rise within you, take a moment. Remind yourself of why you have chosen not to see your efforts in this way. Know that if you work hard at something, invest your heart and your passion and your mind, your outcome will be great. If you make a mistake, be okay with it! Mistakes aren’t the problem, being paralyzed into inaction is. Change how you react to mistakes. Don’t think of them as something to be avoided at all costs. Mistakes are opportunities for growth. You can’t truly be passionate about something unless you’re willing to risk getting something wrong. You don’t learn anything by standing back on the sidelines. You learn by falling down, getting back up, and then going a step further. Perfectionism isn’t part of your personality ~ perfectionism is just a way to cope for the unpredictable. It’s about control. You’re won’t change who you are as a person by renouncing perfectionism, you’ll just discover who you are without this false armor. It was a very teachable moment for my student that night, as I reminded her of what she should be focusing on: the things of God, the things of eternal value, things that cause the name of Jesus to be honored and worshiped. Things that cause people to recognize their sin, repent, and move closer to God. And this is what we get to do as worship leaders when we lift our voices as an instrument, bringing glory and attention to God ~ and that will always translate on Sunday. May you be blessed as you continue to pour into or become the next generation of worship leaders and musicians! Vance & Michelle Shepherd Founders of The Shepherd School of Music in Las Vegas, NV, where they work with youth to raise up the next generation of worship leaders and musicians. facebook.com/shepherdschoolofmusiclasvegas www.ShepherdStudiosLV.com 48 August 2020 Subscribe for Free...