Worship Musician April 2019 | Page 141

to be 100% cancer free. In the last issue of the magazine, Kalley Heiligenthal talked about the difference of knowing God in the middle of the battle and not just at the outcome. Tell us about how God met you in your darkest hours? [Andrew] It’s kind of like what I’ve been saying, it’s the fact that when most people would think that you would feel the farthest away from God is when I felt the closest to God. It’s not until I finally realized that this was not in my control, and that was a good thing. There’s a passage in Luke, I think it’s 12:24, “Consider the ravens, they neither sow nor reap, they have no storehouse or barn, yet God still feeds them”, and that’s paraphrasing, but that just shifted my focus. I’ve learned that through trials we can’t just sit here and say “Hey, God, come help me out!”. We have to make a conscious effort to come to Him. I hadn’t ever been through a trial that big and I just expected God to kind of scoop me up out of this. But with God not just taking this one hundred percent away, and not giving me peace right off the bat, this made me realize that, “Hey Andrew, you can’t sit here and sing all of the worship songs and say, “I love God” and have Him take it all away without you doing anything about it”. That finally is when I realized that I needed to do something, that’s when I saw my prayer life [WM] What advice do you have for people the whole timeline, how it’s going to flow and getting stronger, I saw my reading in His word who are going through something that they how it’s going to end, and it will be for His good getting stronger, my quiet time with Him became can’t see the other side of yet? and His glory. realizing that this is a two-way thing. In order for [Andrew] The biggest thing I would say is, We’re humans and we can’t see the future and God to truly give me all of this peace and comfort, skip the part that I did at the beginning, meaning we can hardly remember the past, I don’t even I’ve got to come to Him, He will have His arm out don’t get down in the dumps, and don’t get remember what I ate for breakfast this morning. and all you have to do is take it. It’s easy to want burned out right at the beginning, because it’s What our good is based on is what we know God to just scoop you up out of this, and His a lot harder to get going if you’ve already given now, what God’s good is based on is what He hand is right there… we’re just sometimes too up. Just realize right off the bat that it’s okay that knows for eternity. The biggest thing is to come stubborn or too prideful to take it. That’s when you don’t have control. Even though you can’t to the realization that He knows the outcome, I finally realized that I had to swallow my pride see the other side, know that the Creator of the you don’t, but that’s a good thing. You just have a little bit, that I couldn’t get through this alone, universe loves you, cares for you, and has your to give up your pride, say, “I can’t go through and that I don’t have everything in control. That’s circumstance in His hands and is going to work this alone…”, and reach out to God, He’s when I realized that I just had to take God’s hand it out for His good… maybe not for your good. there waiting for you and happy to help you in this and let Him pull me out. I guess I feel like God has been here from the beginning of time through it. I grew really close to God in this time for sure. and can see until the end of time, so He knows more influential in my life. That’s when I started April 2019 Subscribe for Free... 141