LOVE lives Now … ( 06 / 03 / 2011 )
LOVE lives Now … ( 06 / 03 / 2011 )
“ The main thing is the kind thoughts we are to have . So instead of trying to still the mind , I used the mind to have kind thoughts … As I did this I noticed that I was ONE with the kindness , so to speak . There was a feeling of being bigger than the body and just being as the kindness . This seemed much better to me than just making the mind still . I have been attempting to still the mind for years and at times it works , but most of the time it just feels more dead than alive . But last night , with the kind thoughts , there was an aliveness — and even at times the mind was quiet but happy , peaceful and kind .
And another thing … My body was aching for some reason , and instead of focusing on the pain or wanting the pain to stop , I simply said a prayer to use my body to radiate Love . As I did this the pain lessened — at least my awareness of the pain lessened , to where it just did not matter .
And another thing … This morning I was taking some home-made soup that I prepared to a sick little elderly lady that is shut in and a bit depressed . While doing so , my body felt more energetic and my mind more at peace and happy than it did when I was “ wondering what should I do ”.
I think the ego LOVES to ask the question , “ What should I do ?” because while we are asking that question , we are waiting for some HUGE supernatural answer — an answer that often never comes . And yet in just looking in that moment , we find the small things that in truth are the answer … My problem had been this : I was looking for the path instead of the step . I know now that I am to look for and take the step instead of looking for the path . Because I think in truth we are all on the path already . We just need to take the steps — one step at a time , NOW & HERE .
I was the one that had looked for and found something to do that was kind for another …. the moment that I found it , my ego said , “ Well , I ’ ll do it later . I don ’ t feel like it right now .” But I caught this and I pushed through anyway … And guess what — I DID just fine . And I actually received energy after doing the kind thing .
I do have to be careful , though … I have to avoid the mistake of doing it for the energy I get . When the ego tries to think about itself in this way , I just say , “ This is not about me , this is not about MY body , this is about doing what I AM here to do , which is to serve .”
That ’ s it . I ’ m not here to judge , I ’ m not here to complain , I ’ m not here to “ better my self ” or to “ better ” another … I ’ m here to Love and I ’ m here to Serve .
And I have no idea if I can do it in the “ future ”… … I just know that I am doing it NOW .”
~ Angie “ Dale ”
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