WHO AM I ?
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Once made aware of your real identity as the Pure Self,
you become awake. But as long as one has the belief, “I am
Chandulal,” he is considered to be sleeping. A Gnani is able to
destroy this wrong belief and awaken you to the right belief that
you are Shuddhatma. Once this awareness becomes established
within you, you become separated from Chandulal, forever.
AWARENESS NEVER BEFORE EXPERIENCED
Srimad Rajchandra referred to this as:
Through the Supreme teaching of the Highest Guru (Sadguru)
Came the awareness, never before realized. Self remains in the
Self. Ignorance is gone forever.
Prior to this Gnan, one is only aware of the body. The
one who acted as Chandulal now reverts to the state of the
Self. That, which was the original abode, becomes the original
abode, and the false abode of, “I am Chandulal,” is gone.
BECOMING NIRVIKALP
After Gnan, “I am Chandulal,” is spoken for identification
in worldly matters only. “I am Shuddhatma,” and “This is mine,”
fall into in their correct and separate places. After Gnan the,
sankalp (“I am Chandulal”) and the vikalp (“This is mine”) no
longer exist. This is the nirvikalp state. The Nirvikalp state is a
state where one remains in the awareness of his real Self. Nirvikalp
state can only exist in the absence of sankalp and vikalp. Initially
you experience a taste of this nirvikalp samadhi, which progresses
with time. But Gnan does not remain ‘exact’ for you, because
for endless lives you have not experienced this real state.
The experience of the Soul is not easy to attain. One can
keep on repeating, “I am Shuddhatma, I am Shuddhatma,” but
the experience does not come. There is no other method to
acquire the experience of the Pure Soul other than through the
Gnan and the Gnani’s grace. The acquisition of Gnan, leads to