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50 WHO AM I ? the Dada Bhagwan within me. My spiritual knowledge is at 356° and Dada Bhagwan is at 360°. Because I lack the four degrees, I too, bow down to and worship Dada Bhagwan, the Lord within me. Questioner : Why do you do this? Dadashri : I do this because I want to obtain the remaining four degrees. I will have to obtain them. I have failed because I lack these four degrees. I have no choice but to pass the next time around. Questioner : Do you have a desire to be ‘Bhagwan’? Dadashri : For me it is burdensome to be a Bhagwan. I am a laghutam (one who really considers everything in the world to be higher than himself; an egoless state) person. There is no other being lower than myself and that is why becoming God would be a burden to me. Questioner : If you don’t want to be a God, then why do you make an effort to complete the four degrees? Dadashri : That is for my ultimate Liberation. SEEN THE WORLD BUT NOT FULLY KNOWN THE WORLD This Gnani Purush lacks only four degrees in attaining absolute and total Knowledge (keval Gnan). I have gone beyond the stage of Self-Realization, but have not yet reached total, absolute Liberation (keval Gnan). I failed the attainment of keval Gnan. Questioner : Which four degrees are you talking about? Dadashri : The four degrees relate to my outward and worldly conduct. The other reason is that although I truly understand this world, I have not come to know it fully. Keval