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I got help from a few people, but due to me, and I lied to them about me doing all of the things they told me to do. I did some of the things that they told me to do. With what I got, I applied to City College of San Francisco and a few other scholarships.
was born and raised in Arizona, Phoenix, all the way until 2012. I then moved to San Francisco for health reasons and other issues going on with my family. I am currently living with my Latino Dad and my brother. My brother and I are mixed, but one of us looks more like one of our parents but acts more like the other parent than the other one. For privacy, I will not go into too much detail about my family.
I graduated high school in 2020, during the pandemic, which was alright. I stayed at home and enjoyed “walking on stage” by just chilling with my family. I am a first-generation college student and the first one in my family to graduate high school. I am currently going to CCSF and studying psychology as my primary major. I am still trying to figure out if I want to have Film as my major or minor. But honestly, I don’t even know if I want to get a diploma in film since I am working at youthLINE. So in the meantime, I’ll just keep on taking the classes for psychology and working at youthLINE.
and I like it, but I have to change if I want to make myself out there. One of the things that I always do, and I need to change, is to stop thinking ahead by a couple of months or years. For my whole life, I have always planned and think of multiple pathways that might occur in my life, mostly negative things. I do this so I can prepare myself not to be disappointed and to not fall into a rabbit hole. Somebody told me that this had caused many things that make me push away people. Another thing that drives me away from people is I have self-diagnosed imposter syndrome, which is blaming oneself just because one might not feel like they belong. Most of the time, one would lie over and over again. It becomes a reality for that oneself and everybody around that one person. An excellent example of this is that I was so afraid of going to college because no one in my family has gone to college, and they didn’t know how to help with what colleges I should apply to, and they couldn’t teach me about scholarships. They weren’t on my ass for doing well in high school.
JULIAN
Academic Journey
My life is Somewhat open
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